I feel absolutely dead inside. I need to get past some horrible mistakes I have made in the past-but I can't seem to let go. I just want to feel alive again. I despise the person looking back at me in the mirror.
Sunday, 01 February 2009
I need to realize that I can't change my wife, with whom I am currently separated from, and need to focus on getting me right with GOD. I filed for divorce in September 2008, and all there is left to finalize it is for me to say ok to my attorney. I love her with all my heart, however I believe that it will never get any better. Please pray that GOD bless me with the wisdom to understand which way to go. Thank you!
Wednesday, 28 January 2009
Kent Whitaker is such a great speaker. What a powerful story of forgiveness. It made me take inventory of myself and get serious of the one person I needed to forgive but have been putting it off. Today I let it go and finally forgave...
Sunday, 18 January 2009
I'm literally SICK of re-living the past hurts...i can't seem to get away from the insult or the pain...and i want to-
Friday, 16 January 2009
I am recently divorced. Had been in a mental and physical abusive marriage for 9 1/2 yrs. I have 4 beautiful children. I recently lost my job right before Christmas. I'm struggling with my bills and things my kids need. I been looking for work, but I have had no luck.
What I need changed in my life, is my self confidence needs to come up, and self esteem up. I want my kids to look at me as their "HERO". Not as a nobody as their dad says..... I have prayed and prayed for help, guidance, strength, will power. I have my ex husband not wanting to DO what was ordered in the divorce. Things is just so stressful. And I really can't handle anymore. I don't know what I'm doing wrong.
What else I need to do.. I JUST DON'T KNOW. I want to be on top of there world not down under like I am now... :( Thank You.
Thursday, 15 January 2009
I need to find out why I fail at long term relationships and commitments.
Friday, 19 December 2008
I need to change my attitude about my husband. He's not going to change until he finds God and there is nothing I can do about that. There is no use badgering him about it either. I can encourage it from time to time but enough is enough. I need to quit taking my frustration over him out on my kids too. Furthermore, I have habits that I need to break.
Tuesday, 18 November 2008
My self-esteem and self-confidence needs a makeover. I need to tell myself that I am able, I am smart, I am strong, I am willing to do what it takes to get the job done. I can do this. I've made it this far, why not farther? Keep my head up, shoulders back and put one foot in front of the other. My day will come.
Sunday, 16 November 2008
Pornography has a hold over me. I used to think that it wasn't a big deal and I could stop any time, but I can't. I'm haunted by images of things I've seen, and I am addicted to the point that if I don't have it, I feel sick. Really sick. I need some help in a HUGE way.
The worst part is, I'm just a teenager. Please pray for me, I really need it.
Wednesday, 12 November 2008
I give up. I cannot force my husband to put me second in his life (second only to God). I honestly, truly, sincerely, completely give up.
Tuesday, 04 November 2008
I need to always remember that God is in control, and when things feel like they are out of control in my life I don't need to turn to drugs or sex or food to feel like I'm in control because I never really am. I need to turn to God that is really the only control I have is where I turn to God or away from Him. I need to make spending alone time with God a priority EVERYDAY to bring me back to what matters most. I need to study the word everyday so that can learn what is expected of me. I need to realize that I don't need to be afraid of people I need to love and care for them(even the ones that I don't think deserve it)God loves and cares for them and I am here to be the hands and feet of Christ, right? I need to remember that its not about me and my feelings I have the love of Christ even if I don't feel love from anyone else.
Sunday, 26 October 2008
"I am the wisest man alive, for I know one thing, and that is that I know nothing" Socrates
I need to realize that I don't have all the answers and I need to put my trust in God for all things and not just the few things I select.
Thursday, 23 October 2008
I need to stop letting the simple things stress me out so much. I need to accept the cards that life has given me and learn to live within my means.
Wednesday, 22 October 2008
I am so addicted to porn. How can God bless my life? I need God's strength to overcome this addiction. It so completely runs my life. I hide it from my family and work, and live in fear they will find out. I am ashamed and lothsome. Please God help me.
Tuesday, 21 October 2008
I work 2 jobs which makes it hard to be organized or motivated!! I know I'm lucky to even have one job much less 2 in these hard times so I need to be thankful and not fuss about going from one to the other!! The Lord will see me through this!!
Tuesday, 21 October 2008
I need to make sure that God is always number one in my priority for the day (and in my life). Whether it means waking up earlier to spend time with him or just maybe skipping lunch to share his love with somebody, because if I don't have Him as number one, then I won't be able to have the joy and happiness that He brings me :)
Monday, 20 October 2008
I need to accept that how my mother treated me in my childhood is not who I am. It is not reality. I need to live GOD'S reality! I can't experience God's reality until I let go of my own warped one
Sunday, 19 October 2008
i have this huge situation that is completely in God's hands...but i am left heartbroken with the results. I used to be an incredibly happy person, but now happiness is so fragile and short-lived in my life.. i guess i need to just let the Lord be my happiness and let Him be my strength to bring me through this...because there is no way on earth that i can do this alone. I need to give my first love to the Lord.ALS
Saturday, 18 October 2008
I need to get better about getting up early to work out. I also need to make more time throughout the day to pray.
Wednesday, 15 October 2008
I need to use my time more wisely- to keep my car and home clean- to take care of the possessions God has given me... I don't know if anyone can relate, but when everything's messy and I can't find certain things, the laundry's piled up and I have clutter everywhere... I get anxious, snappy, and can't focus on the bigger concerns
Friday, 10 October 2008